CHRISTINE.W

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2012-02-17T00:07:00.002+08:00

Mickey will be by my side tonight. He always will be.
Actually I told him a lot of secrets. All my secrets and thoughts, every night.
Oh how I wish that was you.

Anyone save me?

I don't want study. :(

Can I change course?

1 paper down.

4 more to go.

Hopefully I can pass everything!

I need my grades.

Currently listening to :

6 more days to go.

I can do this! I can!

Go christine! :):)

All those thoughts running in my mind. I need to stop. Study is what i should be doing right now.

TSK. And I miss you. Yet I could not do anything. I'm always like that.

Christine please ACTIONS>WORDS

Goodnight.

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2012-02-15T14:20:00.001+08:00

I need a getaway.
I hope 37 days faster pass by
Not replying to any messages.
Gotta stop social networking.
I promise. Except blogging and tumblr-ing.
I will mark my words.
Take me away.
Confused.
Scared.
Unwanted.
Lost.

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2012-02-14T19:40:00.000+08:00

One Direction (Y)

1. What Makes You Beautiful
2. Gotta Be You
3. One Thing
4. More Than This
5. Up All Night
6. I Wish
7. Tell Me A Lie
8. Taken
9. I Want
10. Everything About You
11. Same Mistakes
12. Save You Tonight
13. Stole My Heart

14. Stand Up

15. Moments

All so nice <3

Okay! I gotta head out.

Love.

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2012-02-14T15:41:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentines Earthlings. :)

It's good to be alone sometimes.

#foreveraloneday :>

I'm listening to OneDirection songs.

Spammed my itunes with 1D songs. I'm loving it.

Wonderful (Y)

Time to start studying and drawing of course.

Well. Scroll down and look at the pictures and you'll see memories.

THE VOW! I want to watch. But it will be out only in the Mid April. Awwwwww. So longggggg.
Who want to watch with me?
I hope it will be YOU.

My Awesome Parents and Grandma. Love them <3

Our friendship is still strong. 6.5 years. Still holding on.

My Girls. I miss them.

I can't wait for Phuket with the guys and girls! Awesome (Y) 38 days.

Awww. Kind of miss chewvonnie. :'( Hope to see her soon. Sigh.

WoodlandsRingPri > SembawangSec> RepublicPoly
THETHREEMUSKETEERS. (Y)

ThankYou Fellatio for making my Semester 2 a wonderful one. Had a lot of laughter esp saying about the rejects. You all are awesome (Y)

CUTE A NOT?

This boss. Rach. ^^

Rimah. Funny Girl. Heheh

Thanks for making Semester 2 a fun one for me. Thanks guys :)

EVEEEE. She's a sweet girl aye!

Prettaye Nabila! You should see her face to face. Beautiful. Awww

LOL. The guy who always lend me his jacket my bro. And the friends. HAHA

National Museum

JQJQJQ! My bro Valentine? :O heheh

Trisha Quek! Somehow we have the same minds. Well, great minds think alike.

3/6

Sheesha ^^

This girl forever hugging me <3

Hehehe. The ferris wheel at the back <3

CHINGAYYYYYYY. Make me lose my voice for a week.

Went to Beer Market for some fun with the Guys and Girls. Ah. Clarke Quay.

Had my phone cover changed. LEO.

The Girls <3 Hope there's an outing soon.

For Leen's legal. Maybe I should start drawing again. My secondary school hobby. Hmm.

I finally caught we not naughty with midget. <3 Awesome.

Midget <3
Awww. Somehow I miss this gang. :'(
Hope to hang out with them soon. sigh.

I miss you. Sorry, i'm not good at words. I just can't put my feelings into words. I wanna see you but you look so busy studying. :'( Mixed feelings. If you want me tell me. Hold on tighter please. If I travel miles just to see you, will you be there? I'm waiting. Waiting. just to see you.

Please don't treat me so good X. My heart is reserve for someone special. I don't wanna hurt you.

Anyone can give me a tight hug. Please?

N.U.M.B

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2012-02-09T13:05:00.000+08:00

Holidays are here! Yay!
The thought of UT3 = Sians.
I need to study hard for my ut3
Next week mark the start of studying.
Okay. Im feeling so terrible right now.
Can't stop coughing. Blocked nose. Blocked ears. Sore throat. Flu. Fever. Everywhere pain. :(
Anyone a hug please? :'( le sigh.

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2012-02-05T15:32:00.000+08:00

I tried. I did my best. This is my all. It's alright if you don't care. Nothing hurts more than your words. I'm fine. Don't worry. As leen once told me, let it go and move on, only then I will be happy. Yup. I should heed her advice. We will still be friends right? I just hope that if we ever met on the street one day we will still be able to say at least a hello. :)

Where's the one I've been searching for? Maybe I am still not good enough, that's why I can't have it.

讓心跳停了我就會暫停.

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2012-01-31T17:51:00.003+08:00

When I was 3 years old, everything look so much simpler. There was nothing on my head. I wished I could grow up faster that time.

As I grow, a lot of questions are running in my mind. I have no answers to them. And then I realized growing up wasn't easy at all. Tell me, what can I do to be as free as a bird? No troubles at all.

Things are going hard for me this year. Everything. This is life uh. Well, life sucks. Sometimes I wonder why am I born in the first place to go through all these torture? Why torture me when I have to die eventually? UGH. Seems pointless uh? When I see life in another perspective, sometimes it's beautiful. My family, never fail to give me the warmth, the love, the care. They are always by my side. All those concerns and love, I really appreciate it. Thanks a lot to the Wong family, you all guys light up my life. I love you all.

This is Grace, a very heart warming girl. :)

This is my sister, Christina. Still as united as one. We may have disagreements but after all, I still love her. This is kinship.

My grandmother, 74 this year, healthy and energetic. <3 Of course, she will live long.

This is my fav. aunt. Always satisfy my craves. Lived with her for 4 years. Aww well, I miss her now. :( That secret we had. I'll make sure she live well in the future.

This is my mummy, the one who brought me into this world. Thanks mummy, you are the best mother I ever. Please be my mum again in my next life. Again, I love her.

My younger sister, Michelle. Everyone was wondering why her name starts with a M instead of a C. Well, we may quarrel, but in the end she always give in. I feel so bad. But just so you know, blood is thicker than water. I love her.

Well when I was 5, (end left) Michelle was 2. (beside me) Christina was 6. Xinyi was 5. (right end) I miss the good olden days. The childhood memories. Everything was clear in my mind. I remembered I fell off from a chair and fractured my right arm. A very horrible experience for me as my arm took 3 months to recover. And xy told me that I escaped death as I nearly got knock down by a lorry cos she pushed me into the roads. She feel so apologetic. Hahaha. Well and of cos the hair game. (secrets) :P

Look at us now. Time really flies fast right. Turning legal this year. Aww. Thinking about that, in 5 years time I would be working and supporting my family. How I wished I have a time machine. Can you get me a doraemon? Le sigh. For now, I pray to god to keep my family safe and happy and of cos stay united as one. :)

My thoughts: Who I am today might not be who I will be in 20 years time. Well it's simple, experiences and the people around me changed me and they too changed. You will change, I will change, Everyone will change. What exactly love is? I find it absolutely hard to believe in true love. Hmmm. I believe it anyway. I think teenagers, people do not really understand the true meaning of love. I'm not sure what does it even means. What we all want the most is always what we all fear to lose. What's more compelling than that? Nothing, nothing at all.

This is dedicated to you. If you ever read it.

Missing you is like missing everything. I don't know why I fall so hard this time. You were my first. I used to reject people but there's something about you that stop me from rejecting. Why? I don't know. We used to flirt with each other and text each other everyday. What happened? Now, everything seems fine. Ya right, Yes, everything was fine when I haven't met you. You came into my life. You make a great difference. You are all in my mind. You are the reason. You really got me crazy. I daydream in class picturing you and me together and what will it be like. At night I will be on tumblr posting all those stuffs about you. When I am sleeping, I dream about you too. Oh well, fuck it. I must be really insane. Tell me how to erase you off from my mind? I think 90% of you filled up my mind. This is really crazy. Well, this is also about you. I know I always never take the initiative because I felt that I'm annoying. Well, I once said I am a boring person. I really am. I just hope you wouldn't get bored of me, don't get tired of me. I want you but at the same time, I am scared to lose you. I don't wanna give you up. I was always hoping I am strong enough to holding you tight. What about you? Please please, hold on tighter. To never let go, is my only wish. I swear we will make it last. I sound desperate but no. This is what that is bothering me for so long. Valentine is coming. I hope you will be my valentine. My first, valentine. Sigh. But if you ever find someone good enough for you, let me know, I wish you the very best. So as long you are happy, I will be too. I wouldn't want to see you sad but if you are, I will lend you my shoulder. Just so you know, I'll be there for you, always. I'll never forget you. Please do remember, I love you.

P.S You have gorgeous eyes. It caught my attention the first time I looked at you.

2012-01-25T20:57:00.000+08:00

Let me be alone for now. No. I'm forever alone. Sigh.

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2012-01-14T21:54:00.000+08:00

She's always better.

and I am always jealous.

What I said now wouldn't make any difference, I know that.

You given up on me.

But I would like you to know that, it was you all along.

I don't think I can fall for anyone else except you.

Yes, and I fall too deep.

Please don't be mistaken by how I treat others.

Flirt is one thing. Being nice is another.

I wouldn't fall for them because you have that one thing that they don't have.

What's more, the way i see them is different from what I see in you.

xxxx, is just no one else but a person whom I admire.

You just misunderstood.

But again, what is that one thing that attract me to you?

And why would I bother explaining?

I guess, everything is not about me now.

You have someone else now.

And you told me to give up but you see, I just can't..

Please, don't leave me hanging.

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2012-01-14T00:38:00.005+08:00

请不要相信我的勇敢。

请不要让我跌得更深。

因为我怕我跌到了，就没有勇气再站起来。
终于明白了。
就这样吧。
我，就是那么懦弱。

我，不懂得去爱。

我，也不想被爱。

还我自由。我只要开心就好。

我只想要做一只小小小小鸟。

放弃指数：50%
错错。
放弃指数：95%

Should I?

Christine.

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2012-01-11T19:22:00.002+08:00

Where's my courage?

Sigh. Why is this happening again.

I am so sick and tired.

We're just too stubborn.

We used to type very long messages, now look at it.

What for? You just don't understand.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

You know what, I'm trying. I really am.

But it just don't work out.

You might think that I was the one who never cares.

So what if I cared? Does it makes you any happier? NO.

Because right now I don't think I am your source of your smile.

RN, you have that one person which is enough to make you smile when you see her. *jealous*

Omg. Why does it hurts that much? Like seriouslyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. why like that?

I really want us to be fine. Maybe it was fine, it's just that we have too much insecurities inside us.

We do love each other I guess. Coz we're always jealous and that's one bad thing.

And look here, you will always be my first. I'm falling too deep.
*Please hold on tighter. :'(*

" I'm afraid to take one more step closer. I don't want to get hurt again."

I understood. I just halt for a moment. I need to think. I don't want to be sad.

It was my first time and I am so afraid. Tell me, how am I going to love again when I lost all feelings.

Too much too handle, too much to care but it's never enough to be good for you.

I need air right now. Everyone please go away. I'm going to shut myself from the world and focus just on my studies. I don't care any shits that is going on right now. I don't want to hear and I won't even see. Just leave me alone. I just need my music and my study material right now. Your thoughts would be much appreciated.

This this this song really really sang it the way I'm feeling rn. Pay attention to the lyrics. This shitty feeling. Ughhh. I wished, I could hug you for long hours rn. Come, let's cuddle together :'(

" I know you are hurt because of the promises we gave."

I hope everything is going fine for my sotong girl. I am so worried and sad. Please be alright. I'll be there if you need me. Cheer up girl :) I'm like a useless friend not knowing how to help. What's wrong with me?! I'm just like a useless piece of shit not knowing how to console herrrrrr. Da fug!!
I'm so pissed of with myself. I'm so so so useless.
GRRRRRRRRRR.

My shitty emotion:

Christine.

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2012-01-07T01:36:00.001+08:00

It's the first match with TP today.

As expected, we lost. But, we tried. At least we still hold on to that little glimpse of hope.

From what I think, winning isn't everything. Even if we lost, we will reflect on our mistakes and strive for improvement. To play better. Learn from our mistakes. This is the key thing. Losing, Winning, Life, Almost everything is temporary. (even permanent marker fades after some time.) For my case, I would not let failures, past loses or humiliations affect me. When I fall, I pick myself up again and tried it all over. You see, it your choice. I am the one who make decisions for myself. I can decide whether to try it all over again or give up but still there is no such thing as giving up in my dictionary. Take a chance. There's still hope. So as long there is, I will still hold on. The only thing that is standing in our way is that we get demoralized easily. What for? Don't let it take us. It's time to let go and feel the excitement in the court. What matters most is that we'll have fun. So now? Learn, Practice. There's bound to be improvements. :)

This is the way to go.

My mood now as follows :

There will always be a next time.
We will have fun.

Christine.

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2012-01-05T02:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Everything seems perfectly fine for the moment.

The routine is still the same as before.

WakeUp>School>RJ>Sleep

But now I add in one more

WakeUp>School>RJ>Audi>Sleep

Hehehehe.

Met new friends. Seems to hit off perfectly well. I guess it's because we have common topic to talk about.

Hmmmmmmmm. Let me see. I think my life is a boring one. Le sigh. Okay Bye.

Christine.

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2012-01-03T22:51:00.006+08:00

D I
R W
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D S C H O O L T M Y

H O L I D A Y S

2012.

2012-01-02T06:55:00.000+08:00

真的很开心。呵呵！

我的爱爱。

很想说谢谢你。你大老远的从不知到哪里跑来找我。

啊啊啊啊啊！

真的很感动。

已经有一个月没看见你了，见到你的时候很想紧紧地抱着你，但我没有。

因为我害羞。*偷笑*

"乐不可言"

呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵呵~

虽然有时候吵了起来，但我知道你是关心我，爱我的。

谢谢你的爱。

你知道你真的很可爱吗？呵呵！

*filled with love*

无话可说

2011-12-30T02:55:00.001+08:00

心累了该怎么办？

Insecurities

2011-12-29T02:08:00.007+08:00

不知道为什么听了小宇的“想你的习惯”后特别有感觉。

呵呵。

突然想到，

迎接新的一年剩3天。

我的假期剩7天。

IVP还剩9天。

哇！时间过得还真快哦！

遇见了你也许是此生最美的事情。

I'm really glad I met you.

说真的，我不敢再奢望了。还是傻傻的等待就好。

所谓，less expectations = less disappointments

对不起，我就是没勇气去爱。

请原谅。我的懦弱。

请原谅。我的自私。

如何告诉你我心想的一切？

how?

但，一切已经来不及了

2011-12-27T16:42:00.004+08:00

我不知不觉地爱上你了。

我很想知道我为什么会喜欢上那么平凡的你。

对了，跟你看电影的第二次，我看见了你眼中的悲伤。
在那时，我很想拥抱着你，但我并没有。
对不起，我并没有你想象中的那么勇敢。
我不确定我们是怎样的关系。
我也很害怕，因为我从来没爱过。
记得那天，不知道为什么你沉默的离开。

曾经以为爱情很甜，很美。但一尝试后才懂是苦的滋味。

视线突然变得好模糊。不知道该往哪儿走。

啊！是我自作多情了吗？
也许是我在那里自欺欺人。
经常幻想着我们在一起的时光，仍然还相信着我们还有未来，那就是幸福。
也许对莫些人来说幸福是被自己爱的人爱。
但幸福对我来说是遥不可迹的传说罢了。
如果有永远，也许那就是幸福。

下一站是什么？

哦！我开始用华语了。

呵呵！

CHRISTINE.W

Sleep my troubles away

2011-12-27T03:09:00.000+08:00

Had a fun day on Christmas :p
Party all night. Had a drink.
4 more days to 2012.

Ahh. This guy seriously. <3
Always been there for me. :')
I would like to say ThankYou for everything.
You know who you are :p

Things have been the same for me.
I'm not looking forward to anything at all.
I feel like as if there's nothing. At all.
I don't know whyyyyyyyyyyy.
Ahh! And maybe I should start adoring those who cared for me and ignored those who I cared for.

Now, I would like to buy and read some motivational books.
Its kind of interesting uh.

"Let go of everything which is hurting you. You will be much more happier" - being a happy teen

It's christmas eve.

2011-12-24T14:37:00.001+08:00

It's christmas eve today!
How come no feel one?
I'm back from camp and I'm so so so so tired.
My wrist hurts too. ( i'm only using my right hand to type )
I want to K.O but I haven buy my pressie.
Gotta head out soon. 6 more mins.

Things I can't say but can write. Worst feeling ever.
I've thought of worse things that I might be less inclined to merely just shrug off. Sigh.
If I'm able to read your mind. If..
What's meant to be will find its way. but hell no. sometimes is the effort we put in. ya. the amount of effort.
So now, what's the meaning of happy?

HOHOHOHOHO. Merry xmas~
Ok. I'm being random.

P.S. Santa, please give me my love.

Insomnia

2011-12-22T05:38:00.000+08:00

Okay. I don't know why I can't sleep.
I'm having insomnia .
I can't understand why I feel sad for no reason at all.
Okay. I think I'm going to drink a cup of vodka. At least it can make me sleep.
OH WELL, I'M JUST KIDDING!
S L E E P
goodnight y'all!

It enlightens me

2011-12-22T01:17:00.000+08:00

" 孩子忘了吧所有你留戀的你回憶的你擁有過的那些。都已是記憶缺失並不可怕可怕的，是無法面對孩子你無法輕易忘記放棄。是因為你付出過付出了，她就會像柱子一樣紮根在心不要刻意去逃避。刻意忘記。那隻會讓你更痛苦繞開這個柱子。尋找未來的幸福生活吧那裡，有你的理想孩子開始新的習慣吧習慣，每天一個人生活習慣。一個人過生日。一個人行走習慣。走過熟悉的路。面對熟悉的景你逃不掉。逃不掉的那麼，就勇敢面對。現實現實是。一切。畫上了句點新的你。即將重生找尋你的路，你的未來你知道的，所有的浩劫。都是成長的祭奠做最好的自己。即使。一個人孩子好，好。盡情發洩吧剝開自己的心，用文字，用聲音，用所有能發洩的方式洩完了。就要振作看吧，你失去的。其實微不足道還有那麼多人關心著你。以不同的方式所以，你並不孤獨正是這樣的失去。讓你看清現在所擁有的幸福做你該做的事吧。有很多事。等待著你完成呢為了你的理想，你必須學會適時放棄給對方最好的關懷。就是。變的更好，更強大，更幸福 "

--source: web

I need a getaway

2011-12-21T13:24:00.000+08:00

I need a getaway from everything.
Times flies. It's already the end of the year.
I met new people and I encounter new things. I would like to thank them for adding more colours into my life.
I have to admit that I changed. I used to be so quiet but look at now, you may find me very annoying.
Okay. Right now I just want a getaway. A getaway. I don't know why. But I need a getaway.
A getaway from the urban life. Offline from the social life. I want to experience new things. Me, alone.
But the only thing that is stopping me is I don't have enough money. Maybe the best getaway is to sleep. Why?
At least I can dream.